I love life

Sorry about the lack of pics everyone, everytime I do a blog its so amazing because I don´t knowwhat Im going to say and usually dont have my camera cord with me. Please forgive me. Well letsupdate you on everything, I finally feel some sort of clarity in what I am doing and a little bit more confidence in myself. I know when I meet up with my mom and sister in a couple weeks I will be a little bit out of wack and maybe want to come home more but those feelings have grown less andless everyday. Well not that I dont want to end early but the part of me that wants to do it to come back to a simple life is getting farther away. I know that I need to challenge myself and this is what I should be doing and believe you me it is a challenge indeed. Im leaving all my friends, family, and those Ive grown close with to somehow better myself and thats been one of the most difficult tasks yet to believe in the cliche what doesnt kill you makes you better is something Im striving for. Well one of those things is a 23 hour bus ride, didnt kill me and made me feel that I could do it again. The only problem with it is it takes away a full day of excitement that I could be having somewhere else. For example I wanted to go to a city called Florianpolis but thanks to a friend named Annalee she convinced me that Buenos Aires is a place I would want to spend my time so I decided in that conversation I would make my way towards Argentina rather than stay in brazil for much longer. So off to Foz do Iguacu in Brazil I head to see the Iguassu falls that are trying to become one of the 7 wonders of the new world. Extremely beautiful, pictures could do it no justice I took a video that hopefully would help people understand how serious this place is. I mean yea its a lot of water and yes I did get bored after a while but I think if you lived close not only is it cheaper for you than an outsider but its a phenomenal place to just think. I was with 3 other people I had met the night before and had invited me to join them in traveling for the next week but I still took the time for personal reflection. I am doing the right thing for myself. At home I had a desk job, one that culturally isnt liked by the public, fuck them I was getting paid but yet I still wasnt doing what I love. To this day traveling is something I love to do and just to get an understanding of others lives is very humbling. Working with inner city youth has made me have that appreciation and and yet didnt want to be different from those Im telling the fact that they dont have the best clothes or the best shoes on the market is ok. Im seeing kids who seriously may have 3 shirts in their entire collection if that, yet their entire family is at the bus stop. If I had more of a heart I would cry at those things because we all yes all take so much for granted. I love my grandma for always making sure the middle child wasnt forgotten by the new born I still remember those things. I love my mother for deifinitelty being one of the only in my corner because Ive lived atleat four or five differnet lives where no one knew including myself where i would end up. Its not that seeing poor kids makes me feel that way its the fact that people even when they have less than nothing can be more happy than the way I felt when I felt I didnt have anything. Maybe I just see them at a good time and theyre happy, maybe I feel that they deserve to fell happier than they do and that they should be able to experience the things I have. I mean seriously who am I and I couldve been born into any situation and I just feel lucky. On my 23 hour journey I saw some of the most dingy dirty towns but um who am I to say that, thats someones life and they may never leave that. Im becoming more greatful and yet dont feel that I fully understand yet. Brazil is the worlds 8th strongest economy and I will be heading to the worlds lowest 25%, I have a lot of recognizing to do. The falls though, they were amazing and I will be putting up pics within a day or so to the original link if that link doesnt have the new pics let me know if you didnt get them tell me your email I will link you. When I arrived in agrentina I dont know if it was the fact of a new sense of clarity or the fact I knew it was way cheaper but i really love it. Also theres some sort of slip I was supposed to hold on to from customs, duh, I didnt and its a fine of 75$ but luckily James being James slipped out of that one. Sorry mom. Well I head to the other side of the falls tomorrow and then to Buenos Aires for a week or so and then Machu Piccu, if you dont know any of these places, neither did I, hit up google or Wikapedia and educate yourself. Then you will be like damn I want to go there. After october thats when the real journey and test begins because then I really know Im gone so wish me luck. I miss everyone real bad, not to leave anyone out but Jones miss the laughs, Joel I miss the friendship, Mark miss the competiveness, Kyle youve been gone but still miss you, Little Man miss the love, Jiana miss the attitude, Naya miss the fact that right now youre becoming your own person, Dad Ive always missed you, Nicole missed the dependecy on eachother for guidence a lot has happened that we havent spoke about for me and you Im sure, Rome miss the younger brother, same for Loon, everyone that Ive ever had a relationship with you know how strong that is and was to me and how much I had your back. If your guessing about it Im sorry you shouldnt have to. Im getting there, not there yet, but Im getting there. So just know Im doing ok and hopefully( its a crazy world as Im beginning to find out) that will continue. Again not to leave anyone out but I have had the most vivid dreams where I wake up on a bus or in a hostel room by myself to a harsh reality. Those I can remember were in a couple, Mom, Nicole, debbie, Joel, CMac(yea weird dog), Jones, Bugger, and Im sure many more to come. Seriously really hard to wake up to. Well peace up M town down