Out of my Element

Replying to my sister´s comment, yes Buenos Aires is the techno capitol of the world and as I was at club Pacha that saturday night I realized something. I can´t fake it, I mean I tried for like two "songs" if that´s what you call a thumping bass line and noises comparable to a Star Trek phaser(phaser on kill). I mean the club is packed and the guys I went with quickly jump on this stage and do moves that would look like chopping their arms and as I look around, the guys dance with guys and the girls dance with girls. There is no way to dance with someone, can dance in front of them and show them your sweet techno moves, but you can´t get close to someone at all. I´m shaking my shoulders and moving my arms but guys all around me are bopping their heads and some people are like do the chalreston it was all just very foreign to me. People constantly say you don´t know this song, I love this song and I can´t tell the difference from one to the next. So I have now told myself after being to the supposed best club in BA that I will no longer go to these techno clubs and will only head to hip hop ones, maybe samba, but definitely not techno. I have no fun, I end up just sitting down somewhere hoping to leave and have no idea how people like this stuff. I´m sure they feel the same way about my music so I don´t get mad or defensive just now know that I would rather be by myself enjoying the scene rather than trying to conform becuase I can´t fake it. A couple that I have grown fond of, a 29 year old man and his 25?6? year old fiance that have been together for 7 years, see in my face that I´m not enjoying myself but they´re great and gladly try to help me enjoy the music. It´s not working and then we get into a conversation with a couple other ladies and I explained to them what twerking is, the theory behind it, how you can get twerked and then the girl can just walk away. This is completely foreign to them, they first just called it dry humping, then said that if they did that a guy wouldn´t ever leave their side. I could understand that, that might happen back home but I let them know that they had free choice in what they wanted to do but it helped me realize that maybe twerking shouldn´t be as informal as it is. Maybe the culture of the twerk is a little bit of raging hormones and maybe it is something that shouldn´t be passed around. If these girls are so comfortable dancing with each other and no one really breaks that personal bubble space then that might be a good thing. Maybe it is something that could be compared to a bond that people shouldn´t experience unless you feel a certain way. I will put in fact the original twerker of them all and the lady who invented the twerk face, Em, now this girl from the first day I have met her broke me off in a proper twerk session which included people holding my back so I wouldn´t fall over and ironically we made that full circle on my going away party. Now I know that it is purely fun whenever she or others are dancing but it has just made me think differently about it or atleast challenge my original thoughts. No worries when I get home I definitely will be due for a twerk session and Lemon is one of the best. (Twerk to anyone who doesn´t know is slang for dancing so I wasn´t being vulgar, had to put that in there for mommy) So hopefully when I get to the next hip hop club I will feel more at home. Also about challenging ones thoughts, I have always done that with my friends. It might piss them off and I might not even be opposing them, just challenging their way of thinking. People get so stuck in a routine they don´t know that it may not necessarily be as common as they think or even if it is doens´t mean that they majority is correct. I don´t know if it was debate in class or when I was sober they would really help me think in other peoples shoes but I just like appreciating both sides of an arguement and I feel that you can justify a lot of what you do if you know all the angles. So I have learned that is something I am doing right now, I like clubs, I now have tried and still I don´t like techno and now I can fully make a decision that is unbiased because I have tried. This can be done in multiple situations not only with music but with food, speech(everyone across the world laughs at us for calling elavators elevators, they are a lift, cling film[saran wrap], and they say that we say aluminum while they say al·u·min·i·um. just weird) so as I continue I will find more ways to challenge myself and I challenge you do to the same, exits blog with snaps similar to a peotry reading